Friday, July 08, 2005

Worst time to wake up ...

I hate it when I suddenly come to wakefulness and look at my alarm clock to find that I still have 5-10 minutes before my alarm will ring.

Because I'm such a lazy bastard, I hate to be up earlier than I have to, but if I lay back down the odds are I won't wake up when the alarm starts ringing; it will probably take my sleep-numbed head 15-30 minutes of alarm ringing before I get back up again.

I wish I could just go back to bed for another 6 or 7 hours.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Hungry ... but for what?

Isn't it irritating when you're not only hungry, but hungry for something ... only you don't know what it is?

I've had that feeling pretty much for three days — one breakfast, three lunches and three dinners — and while I've been able to quell the hunger feeling, I've failed to satiate the appetite. I haven't been able to find that meal for which I'm hungry.

On Monday, I had ham and cheese on hoagie rolls for lunch. Dinner was Chinese food with a friend — sweet-and-sour shrimp, chicken cashew, chicken cutlet, wanton soup and lechon, with fried rice.

On Tuesday, I had pasta for lunch, a spaghetti dish with a red sauce and mushrooms. Dinner was a few Lays Stax potato chips, then a bag of baby carrots during poker (Hey! I eat semi-healthy sometimes!).

Wednesday, I had a couple of sausage McMuffins and a hashed browns from McDonald's for breakfast. Lunch was some crappy two-choice — Salisbury steak (ugh) and grilled ribs (double ugh!) — from a place I'll never eat at again, though I did have a decent piece of strawberry-rhubarb pie (my FAVE). Dinner was Thai fooh — chicken pahd thai and beef panang. The pahd thai was good and I hadn't had it in a long time, but it still didn't quite hit that spot.

So I've had Italian, sandwiches, Chinese, Thai, fast food, semi-home-cooked (the two-choice place).

I know I don't want/crave Vietnamese or even Japanese, though I haven't had good sushi in a long time. I also don't yearn for any of the fast food places — except for Quizno's, which has been closed for a year or so here dammit! — or even any of my usual favorites, such as a bacon cheeseburger, Korean barbecue. I'm not wanting salads or soups.

I think what I'm really craving is something I can't get — like roast beef and mashed taters with gravy. It's one of my mom's specialties, but she's way over in the middle of the continental United States, and no restaurant, or even friend, can make it close to how she does it.

Hell, I think tomorrow for dinner I'll go to one of those expensive steakhouses. Hey, I've gotta try something; might as well go for a nice, thick, juicy steak, right?