Friday, April 14, 2006

fucking bleah ...

OK, here's the deal:
• I'm pretty sure I'm coming down with something. I fucking hate that.

• I'm going to try to see my doctor about it later today. I fucking hate going to see medical professionals.

• I'm feeling achey and sore, but not tired, so it would be pointless to lay down now. I fucking hate that.

• I'm going to take some medicine in hopes that it makes me feel better and makes me drowsy. I hate that I have to fucking do that.

• Let's just roll all the rest into one big package — I'm lonely, I'm alone, I'm in a place I don't wanna be but can't go just yet but hopefully can relatively soon but who really knows ... and I fucking hate having to wait and see on that crap.
The good things going on in the life of the DZER:
• I'm not broke. I'm not in debt. For the the first sustained period of time since entering college in 1987.

• I actually have a pretty good job and work with pretty good people. It's not perfect, but it's much better than many I know.

• I have decent health insurance, so it won't hit me too hard to go to the doctor and get medicine.

• I don't have the kind of raging insomnia that I had for a sustained period of time years back.

• Easter brunch should be very tasty and I get to bowl with the godsons!
Back to the bad shit:
• I didn't hit the lottery ... AGAIN!

• I still have to pay water, power, internet and phone, rent and cable for the month. Oh, and car insurance is due.

• And taxes. And I owe from last year, and I will pay more this year. Fucking bleah.

• I haven't seen a stripper up close in personal in almost 40 days ... yes, it's the one Lent resolution that I kept.

• I'm still smokefree. And sometimes, all I really want is to smoke one KOOL Menthol King cigarette down to its butt.

15 comments:

terry said...

damn, dz, i feel ya.

i gotta say, this has been a weird year so far for a lot of people i know.

hope you feel better soon, darlin'.

ell said...

come on d, buck up! spring has sprung! and you're living in paradise for crying out loud.

*insert appropriate shakespeare quote here*

ell said...

come on d, buck up! spring has sprung! and you're living in paradise for crying out loud.

*insert appropriate shakespeare quote here*

crscntmoon said...

if I didn't suck so bad at "pep talks", I'd attempt it.
but I generally just end up making people feel even worse, so I'll refrain.
hope you feel better soon

Madame X said...

Hold on D Easter is around the corner!

Chrissie said...

Hmm. I'll trade your shit for mine anytime lol
job n all!

ArtfulDodger said...

Ouch, man I hope you are feeling better! Most of that bad stuff is hiting me too AND my Mac died today! :(

steff81 said...

I love how you can mix the good in among the bad! Feel better :o)

SignGurl said...

I think the blechs that are hitting you are hitting my PC. It's still sucking skunk tails. That's why I haven't visited you in a while.

Miss ya!

AlwaysArousedGirl said...

Sorry, sweetie. Wish I had a pithy bit of advice for you. I don't.

Hugs from half-way around the world.

DZER said...

terry: thanks hon, I appreciate it ... this year has definitely been ... different

ell: thanks hon ... though there's no "spring" in the tropics ... there's only rainy season and not rainy season LOL

crscntmoon: thanks darlin' ... mucho appreciado ...

madame x: yep ... two days till the Easter brunch feast-tacular!

chrissie: hmmm .... fucking PASS!!! LOL *smooches and gropes*

art: ouch ... dead mac = fucked up ... but now you can buy the new, superfast pentium mac!!

steff: well, every pile of shit has a silver lining ... LOL

signgurl: ooooh ... skunktails sucks big stinky balls! ... glady to see you back here again ;)

AAG: It's a pity you have nothing pithy ... you could have pitched pithy whilst wearing a pith helmet in a pit in pittsburg! thanks sweetie *gropes your ass during the hug*

JMai said...

I'm sorry you're feeling icky... but hey! It's the weekend! And you get Easter brunch and bowling!

The idea of seeing a stripper up close makes me want to dry heave.

Damn those lotto numbers!!

DZER said...

jmai: thanks ... but the weekend is the worst time to be sick!

and strippers are yummy!

stupid lotto!

kathi said...

I'm really worried about you, you've got to learn how to open up and express yourself. Don't be so afraid to say what's on your mind, or how you're feeling. We love you, we care about you, we want to know! By the way, I was just wondering how are you feeling lately? :)

DZER said...

kathi: *pinches you REAL hard*

heh

wiseacre!